Shipped off to sadness
So near yet so bloody far.
I need to sew in a bloody invisible zipper for the dress because I want it so form-fitting. I need to make more measurements. Then I have to pack for Shanghai and buy a battery for my old Dell. :/
Just when I thought everything could be working out.
First I want to watch ANTM.
10th May Thursday
Muscle aches torment me today and I had no exercise at all, well, except for walking.
Met the boy for dinner because he had some time out. Didn’t admit to missing him. That’s me. Deal with it.
Collected my photos, and some were awesome, some were blah and some were not worth looking at. Haha, should stop using the Diana Mini and start using the Holga and Fuji, and maybe venture into the 120 cameras soon.
Finished The Little Prince and started on Lolita today.
Bought 3 metres of fabric for which purposes I haven’t a clue. Dress maybe? Most likely. I’ll have to research on that one.
Met up with Clara and Yuhan. So wondrous. So exciting.
E’s coming back tomorrow. So, we’ll watch a couple of films before heading to Zland.
Oh man.
Well I woke up at 1230. Call me a pig, I spent the night talking to my sister. And erm ya. So the plan has changed, I will be doing my workout today, after I get back from film collection and brow threading.
Going to be doing the Bikini Bootcamp on Blogilates three times and some cardio M60. The other problem is finding a space to do all these workouts. My room feels much to small and constricted for this but I guess it could work.
First official day of Su’s Summer
Read: Procrastination.
Well, I finally got my arse off to get art supplies and I intend to do so one more time tomorrow. No workouts done today, but walking around town was pretty taxing on my feet.
I went to (not very) thrift store: Salvation Army. Sigh, my shirts were still up to ten dollars each. Not thrifting at all, especially after the steals I got in Europe when I backpacked last year.
Back to the story: I bought 2 secondhand shirts: one is slightly large than I am and one is completely dress size. I found it in the men’s section. It’s chambray I think, and hopefully I get inspired and make things out of them. Giggles.
Also headed to ArtFriend to purchase some pearls and pin backs, after a long futile search for collar-pin backings, I resorted to using regular pin/brooch backs. Persistence not paid off.
So, did not manage to work out because 1:I was lazy and 2: I felt slightly slimmer today. Haha. Not a good excuse at all.
Collecting my film tomorrow. Eggcite! :)
Plan for tomorrow: Wake up at ten to work out: Bikini Bootcamp x 3 plus stretch for half and hour, will end at 1130
Then head to get my brows done, and maybe book a facial (I deserve it) and book my BW, I have no idea how to explain this to E but I will surely find a way to. And my back treatment. Using up all my Groupons this week and next.
Summary of my Summer Goals
After today, it shall be the start of summer. I shall embark on my projects, my weight loss programme (which include blogilates and cardio and stretching). Go for a few facials, sew some dresses, make some magic, cook some food. I intend to whip up a picnic for E. But time is so tight. I am going to do one DIY project a week or more if I can manage.
Tonight, I shall figure out what I want to do, and start on it this very week. I’ll be heading out to Shanghai in June for a month I suspect. So during that time, it will be less crafting and more reading. Great!
Fitness Goals:
#1 Lose 4kg
#2 Run 5km with pleasure and ease by the end of summer
#3 Scorpion and heel stretch well
#4 Get my long-lost abs back for realz
DIY Goals:
To be confirmed
Reading Goals:
Read 30 books this summer
Photography/Design Goals:
#1 More photographs with E
#2 Develop at least 10 rolls of 35mm film and 5 rolls of 120 film
#3 Learn more about my analogue cameras
#4 Learn more about digital photography
Cooking Goals:
#1 Cook once every fortnight if possible
#2 Bake with E
#3 Whip up awesome picnic with E
Places I want to visit this Summer:
#1 Gardens by the Bay in June/July
#2 Beach
#3 Arab Street/Haji Lane area
#4 Hort Park
#5 Dempsey/Botanic Gardens
#6 Chill at a cafe
Things I wna do with E:
#1 Chilled Movie Marathon
#2 Laze laze laze and talk talk talk
#3 Picnic
#4 Beach
#5 Running
#6 Outings to explore and take photos
#7 Shopping for him
#8 Baking
So much to do and so little time.
I will be thrift shopping tomorrow and finishing up the film in my Holga 135BC. Go me.
One of those days again
One of the days everything seems like they’re falling apart, in the midst of exam period, nothing’s getting absorbed by this thick head of mine. And I feel all angsty at E again. This time I have issues partly because of this girl who used to like him and he wouldn’t tell me who. I mean, I’m all for being open and honest about everything. Why does he even feel the need to keep her a secret. I would gladly tell him all about my past, boys and names included. Is it just me? Unless he had something for her. I want to get it out of him. Am I being a bitch here? Is her even worth it? You have no idea how many times I wanted to tell him its over in a fit of angst. Manage yourself.
Disappointment
Not the first, and most certainly won’t be the last.
So many disappointments and I just feel like a carpet has been pulled from under my feet.
Again and again.
One moment I am dancing upon my feet and when I land, the rug is just pulled and I end up on my bottom. Sore and hurt.
I can’t describe it. This is really, off-putting.
Bad mood. Bad mood.
Dreams
Still seeking. Ever so furiously. I have no clue what I want to do with my life. &Everyday I am surrounded with people so sure of themselves. Then I am also reminded of people who think they know what they want to do, because it’s cool. When they know zilch.
In both situations, I am just a big heap of LOST.
There’s so much I want to do when the exams are over.
Read. Read the Economist. Read about the world. The rock I have been living under should be dissolving this summer.
Read novels, and be reminded of the beauty in the world. My world needs not to be filled with practicality. Some romantic would definitely help. People need to stop being so practical. Beauty, is all lost?
